He is the head of my life. 

I had to learn to let go and stop putting up a fight. 

I was steady trying to go left, when he was telling me to go right. 

Stubborn, I didn’t want to listen. 

I always got in His way, which only led me to stumble and start tripping. 

Tried to be the captain of my own ship. 

But when the waves overtook me I found myself sinking quick. 

But one day He reached down his hand and saved me. 

Told me if I just let go and let him lead, my past would be washed away and I will be set free. 

So I made that decision to finally follow His vision. 

He is now the captain of my soul. 

Simply because I willingly let go of thinking I had complete control.

-Rose

My first ever blog entry! Wow! It feels great and I am excited to begin this new journey. I’m excited to share my thoughts and life experiences with you all. I hope you enjoy!

Let go of control. I wrote this poem a couple of years ago. I remember reflecting on my life one day and thinking how far God has brought me from where I used to be. Before I submitted my life to Jesus in 2018, I lived for the world. Did whatever I wanted to do. Thinking that I was really living. I made choices that only put me in difficult and heartbreaking situations. I have always believed in God, but I never really knew Him as my Heavenly Father. I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus either. Over the years I have learned that there is a difference between believing in God and being an actual follower.

I would attend church service, go to the alter, and then go home and continue living the same rebellious life I was used to. It was a never ending cycle leading me nowhere. I got tired. Life was overwhelming. Romantic relationships ended all the same way. I wasn’t growing as a person. “I was steady trying to go left, when He was telling me to go right.” In 2011 I was warned by a co-worker not to continue further in the direction I was headed because it wasn’t going to be good. Did I heed the warning? Of course not, because I thought I was in control. I thought I was untouchable. Until the day I wasn’t. I was faced with an altercation that ended up with me in the hospital with a bloodied and broken nose.

It still took me 7 years to finally get the point. That I was missing something, rather someone. I was missing Jesus in my life. He was the only person who could rescue me from this life of sin. The only person who could save me from myself. All it took was for me to let go of the life I was trying to hold onto so badly. Once I finally made that decision it was so freeing. It was the best decision I have ever made for myself and my girls. Because guess what? The decisions you make don’t only impact you, but your loved ones as well. They have a better future, and so do I, because I decided to let go and give God complete control.

If you think you are too far gone from getting your life right with Jesus, you’re wrong. It doesn’t matter where you’ve been or what you’ve done, God welcomes you into His loving family with His arms wide open. He knows everything and sees everything. Make that decision today to step into a relationship with Jesus. You won’t regret it. I don’t.

✝️“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
Jeremiah 29:11 NLT
https://bible.com/bible/116/jer.29.11.NLT