Does He really love me?

Could it really be?

What have I done to deserve it?

What does He see in me?

Many times I have pushed Him away.

Broke away from His loving grasp.

But He continued His pursuit.

Never breaking a sweat. Never giving me the boot.

I always ran in the wrong direction.

In the direction of other men.

Only to never be satisfied.

Then found lost and wandering in the end.

Shivering, tired, lonely from neglect.

Beat down, crying, broken from lack of respect.

But He grabbed me by the hand and took me in.

No questions asked.

Feeling ashamed of myself, but He said, “I forgive your past.”

His love has made me brand new.

I have been made clean.

I have been redeemed.

With my eyes wide open, now I can finally see the truth.

I will never be loved like this because His love is one of a kind.

Satisfaction guaranteed.

His arms I will never leave.

-Rose

His Love. Wow, 2019. By this time it had been a year since I re-dedicated my life to Christ and I felt great. I had been going to my church consistently. Getting involved through serving each week regularly. I was surrounded by so much life-giving community. This time was completely different than what I had experienced before growing up in church. I felt real growth. Although I was just starting out in my faith, I felt closer to God than ever before. I was actually reading the Bible and getting to know who God is and what Jesus did for me. The messages preached were easy to comprehend and aided me in understanding what being a believer and follower of Jesus really meant.

I didn’t know what real love was until I stepped into an actual relationship with Jesus. That’s where it begins. All that time I was out there living for the world chasing after relationships with men, looking for someone to love and love me back, God was there the entire time. Waiting for me. I didn’t have to chase Him. I didn’t have to do anything to earn His love. All He wanted was for me to come to Him as I was. A mess. Yes, I was a hot mess. Yet, He didn’t judge me. He just wanted to love me and clean me up so that I can be set free from the bondage of sin that I was living in. He wanted me to live in His best and nothing less.

No matter how far we think we have gone in life, God is always there watching and waiting for us to turn to Him. No matter how many times we fall, He is there to pick us right back up. His grace and mercy are sufficient for us. He never stops loving us and there is nothing at all that can separate us from it. Even in my sins He loved me.

If you find yourself today far from God. Struggling to change your ways of living in sin, there is good news! You don’t have to try and do it alone. It’s impossible on our own. Only God can do the transformative work in and through us if we simply make the decision to surrender our life completely over to Him and allow ourselves to be loved by Him.

✝️“But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭5‬:‭8‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/116/rom.5.8.NLT