I’m sitting here acting like I’m doing work. 

Really? Wow that seems kind of silly. 

Yeah, I know, but hey, I just have to go with the flow.

Hearing the keyboard click and clack makes it seem less obvious that it’s actual work I lack.

Can’t just sit here, motionless, and stare blankly at my screen.

I have to look productive. 

You know what I mean?

Caught up on all my claims, but I don’t want to go home.

I need this money.

I got bills to pay. A mortgage, utilities, and a student loan.

I have mouths to feed.

A family that depends on me.

You see? 

So, I take advantage of this extra free time to focus on writing this poem. 

What started out as me being bored, led to this.

With an hour and a half left of this shift.

I have to make use of this God given gift.

So, I sit here and type out the words that come to mind.

As I get paid by the hour, working my nine to five.

This writing is something like my five to nine.

Hopefully one day it will become full-time.

Maybe. We’ll see.

Only God knows what my future will hold.

So, for the time being I’ll continue writing when I can.

Whether it’s on the clock, sitting at the foot of a dock, or on top of a mountainous rock.

Pardon me as I rephrase that opening sentence.

I’m sitting here actually doing some work, writing.

I can honestly say this is my passion. I believe I am truly meant for this.

-Rose

Writing. It’s such an amazing feeling when words just begin to flow out of you. I wasn’t expecting to write anything today, but as I stated in the poem, I had time on my hands and a mind full of thoughts. I really just started to write as if I were writing a journal entry. Sometimes I overthink when it comes to my writing. The overthinking causes me to get blocked mentally. Today I just said forget it, write exactly what’s on your mind.

Normally I would see if my coworkers need assistance with anything because I’m the type of person that needs to stay productive. I don’t like to stand around and chitchat. My day felt long and drawn out already. The weather was really dreary and had me fighting against the feeling of sleepiness. I just wanted to be wrapped up in my blanket in bed.

It was just one of those days I guess. Maybe I need more like them. Lately, I have not had the mental space to truly focus on writing. It seems like when I’m at work I feel more productive than when I’m at home. I tell myself it’s the posture of sitting up at an organized desk with a screen in front of me that makes me feel like this. I am able to clearly think about all of my home responsibilities that I need to do, but as soon as I get off, my mind gets frazzled and overloaded. 🤣 All my thoughts stampede over me. Have you ever felt like that? When I am at work, in my office, with pretty much zero distractions, and caught up with my daily responsibilities, it seems like the perfect time for me to write. I don’t get this much distraction free time at home. I hardly get anytime for myself. I am working on making more time for Rose. She needs me too. 😊

I mentioned writing becoming a full-time job. At the moment I just don’t know how or what that may look like. I love encouraging others, sharing my testimony, life experiences and what I have learned. I am constantly receiving positive feedback about my writing, so I believe I am heading in the right direction. Wherever God is leading me, I want to continue to follow. I will continue to pray and ask God to reveal to me what He wants me to do with this writing gift He has given me. For right now it’s a poetry blog. I may not post often, but it’s a start somewhere to using my gift to encourage others. Next, it could be a book. Who knows.

What are you really good at and passionate about? Share it with others. You never know how it will impact their life. Something that may be a hobby to you could change the world for the better. We weren’t given these gifts and talents to keep for ourselves, but rather to use it and give all the glory to God. He gets the glory because He is the author of our story.

✝️“In his grace, God has given us different gifts for doing certain things well. So if God has given you the ability to prophesy, speak out with as much faith as God has given you. If your gift is serving others, serve them well. If you are a teacher, teach well. If your gift is to encourage others, be encouraging. If it is giving, give generously. If God has given you leadership ability, take the responsibility seriously. And if you have a gift for showing kindness to others, do it gladly.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭12‬:‭6‬-‭8‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/116/rom.12.6-8.NLT