As much as I want to scream, yell, cuss and fuss.

I must remember that God fights for me.

The storm within me makes me feel like someone else.

I don’t like this feeling because I am not myself.

God is fighting for me.

He tells me to just remain calm.

It’s easier said than done.

But I must try, so I seek out His word and find a Psalm.

As I read, He whispers to me that the battle is already won.

To become free from this heavy weight on my chest.

I must surrender it all over to Him.

The anxiety that is paralyzing and the stress of this mess.

He tells me to reflect on the past.

How He has fought and brought me through before.

In the reflecting I am reminded of His faithfulness and how the previous storms did not last.

Let go and let God is what we always say.

It begins with truly trusting that He knows best.

As we allow Him to lead the way.

God fights for me.

He is my refuge and my shield.

I no longer need to worry but instead continue to pray.

It’s where I can find peace and how I will be healed.

-Rose

God Fights for Me. The past two weeks have been pretty rough for me. I have been going through multiple trials, but there has also been some praise reports in the midst of these trials. It’s easy to focus on the negative even if the positive outweighs it. For example, if you post a picture of yourself on social media and receive thousands of positive feedback, but you see that one negative comment. It’s funny how our minds will settle and ruminate on that one negative comment. How it has the ability to paralyze you. Why do we put so much focus on the negative?

I have so much to be thankful for, even in the midst of my struggles that test my faith. I am thankful for my Sweet Girl, who is 10. She had her first EKG performed last month after complaining of chest pain and palpitations. I was told that the results showed a left atrial enlargement. Wow! That news just came out of nowhere and shocked me. Since my family has a history of heart problems, I wanted to ensure I took this seriously, but I refused to allow those results to worry me. I found refuge in Jesus during that time. I also had other things going on that helped to keep my mind off of it until her next appointment for further testing, which showed no sign of heart issues. and is healthy. Praise God!🙌🏽I could have chose to remain in a state of fear, worry, and anxiety for two weeks before her next appointment, but what good would that have done? I just gave it to Jesus and He worked it all out for our good. Thank you Jesus!

Each time I am faced with a battle that I have no control over and feel helpless, Exodus 14:14 comes to my mind. This verse is said by Moses as he was tasked with leading the Israelites out of Egypt. They were at a dead end with the Rea Sea on one side and the Egyptian army coming to attack them on the other. Moses encouraged them by saying, “The Lord Himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.” After that the scripture tells us that God parted the Red Sea for them to walk across on dry land to escape the Egyptians. He is faithful and hears our cries for help. As I repeated that verse in my head going through these multiple set backs this past week, it helped me to remain in Jesus. It helped me to remain calm and not become overwhelmed and panic. There was one point last week where I was so angry and frustrated that I felt this heavy weight on my chest. I ended up bursting out in tears at one point. It felt kind of hard to breathe. Have you ever experienced that feeling? You get so mad that your only response is to cry. I didn’t cuss anyone out. I didn’t sin in my anger and frustration. The Holy Spirit remained in control, not my flesh. I did have my moments of anxiety, but I refused to let it consume me. I continued to keep my eyes on Jesus. Even as I am typing this right now, I am still going through some trials. I am learning that the more my faith is tested the more I lean on Jesus for strength, peace, and comfort. The testing of my faith only makes me stronger and helps me to persevere when I face future battles.

God did not say that we wouldn’t encounter any troubles as we live our life, but He did promise to be with us through it all. If you’re facing a difficult season right now in your life, surrender it to Jesus. Trade in your problems for His peace by laying it at His feet and trusting that He will make a way. When we don’t quit, we win.

✝️“The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.”
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭14‬:‭14‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/116/exo.14.14.NLT