This moment right here when everything is brand new.

You’re getting to know me while I’m getting to know you.

This moment right here is a feeling that I never want to lose.

Not knowing what our future holds because you still have a decision to choose.

All I know is I’m feeling you, and by the sound of it I know you’re feeling me too.

Chatting it up for an entire day.

From the moment we wake up, until down we lay.

That cheesy smile you’re so good at producing on me.

The way you’re still present but not in the same room. How could this be?

I never expected this moment between us at all.

Just a friend, checking in. I didn’t anticipate to become this involved.

Now you’ve become a part of my daily routine.

Every morning you’re on my mind as I take a sip of caffeine.

So far from what I’m seeing, you may be the man of my dreams.

But that dream could be cut short and ripped at the seams.

Because this moment right now is not guaranteed.

Once the decision is made there is a possibility….

A possibility that my dream could become a reality.

-Rose

This Moment. I dedicate this poem to a very special man in my life. My beloved, Sea Turtle❤️. He may be a little surprised when he reads this blog post🥰. We began dating on December 23, 2024, but as you can see from the date next to the title of this poem, we have some history. I met him in 2019. We were coworkers. I was training him as a backup in our IT department. I remember him being so quiet and reserved. He is extremely hard to read, but there was just something about him that made we want to know more. On the outside, he seemed pretty intimidating, but once I began conversing with him I realized that he is very kindhearted and laid back.

I will never forget that moment I decided to reach out to him in January 2021. He wasn’t feeling well and I noticed he hadn’t been to work in a while. I didn’t know much about him at that time, but I wanted to see if he was ok. Me reaching out led to us realizing, over time, that we have so much in common and a connection so strong. From cooking, which he is AMAZING at😊to being out in nature, it was just so refreshing to know we had mutual interests. We enjoyed having spiritual and intellectual conversations. We would find ourselves just making up words and laughing about it. We’d text all day and never have a dull moment. He has ways of making me smile while not even being nearby. A simple sticky note that read “hello” left at my desk or a smiley face would make me blush uncontrollably. It’s just easy being myself around him.

I would journal out my thoughts as our friendship continued. It was something that I never experienced with a man. A true friendship with a guy I am interested in. It was different. It was pure. I enjoyed listening to him speak, even if I had no idea what the big words meant that he used. I would find myself looking it up later😂. We hadn’t hung out much together outside of work, but I felt safe with him. I would pray for Sea Turtle and ask God to heal and draw him near to Him. Along the road of our friendship, I started to believe that he was meant for me. He checked off every box on my list. I became attracted to his heart. He just has this gentle presence about him. He would share how he has a love for animals, dogs especially. How he would foster them until they found their forever home. Some dogs he would foster even if they had an illness. He would continue to care for them until they passed. The way he displayed love to animals revealed so much of his character as a person to me. How he is compassionate, patient, kind, loving, generous, gentle, protective, and dependable. How can you not love a man like that?

It took a substantial amount of patience on my part. I was so used to diving head first into relationships. I never took time to truly reflect or process what I see in a man or if I even liked him. I had always struggled with the same thing leading me, my flesh. There was a lot keeping us apart that really helped us from falling into the instant gratification of our flesh. For me, for the first time, was the holy spirit. Another was the fact that we knew the timing wasn’t right for us. It was a wise decision to not try for something more during that season of our lives. We both had a lot going on in our life. I would continue to pray to seek God’s will. If this was the man that God had for me then he would be for me. I chose to be obedient to the leading of the holy spirit. I didn’t want to continue the repeated cycle of doing things my way. My way always led to destruction and heartache.

After four years of being intentional friends and reserving our emotions the best we could, our relationship has bloomed into something more. I am glad to say that we are dating. It was definitely an uphill battle just to get to this moment, but he is worth it and so am I. I look forward to all that God has in store for us in the future as we continue to keep Him first and in the midst of our relationship.

✝️“Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭13‬:‭4‬-‭7‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/116/1co.13.4-7.NLT