I am comforted.

I am at peace.

I am deeply loved.

My needs are met daily.

I am cared for.

I am adored.

I am not alone.

During a season of singleness.

Companionship may be missed.

But I am reminded that I am not alone. 

Feelings of loneliness that can easily lead to situationships.

But He does not condone.

I choose to live in His steadfastness.

I refuse to believe that I cannot move past this.

Digging in His Word constantly like a dog burying a bone.

I am comforted.

I am at peace.

I am deeply loved.

As His child, He never fails me.

I am cared for.

I am adored.

I am not alone.

-Rose

Not Alone. I was going through some of my old journal notes recently and stumbled across a folder of poems that I wrote years ago. I remember where I was in this moment while writing this one. I wasn’t dating anyone and it was the longest that I had been single after ending my previous relationship. This season in my life was needed. When you are constantly in and out of relationships, looking for comfort and love in the arms of someone, it leads to some dark places. Places I’ve experienced. Your identity gets lost. You become emotionally dependent and place them on a pedestal. It’s not healthy.

At the time of this poem I began to know my worth more. The more serious my relationship became with Jesus, the more confident I became as a woman. Being single no longer bothered me. I needed to first learn to love Rose and understand who God created me to be, before I could even think about trying to love a man on that level. I had to understand and come to know God’s love for me.

When I finally took my focus off of desiring to be in a romantic relationship with a man so badly, God showed me what real true love means and looks like. It’s not a bunch of empty words, material things, or physical pleasure. He showed me that it begins in the heart. It’s sacrificial, requires action, and is unconditional. It’s not a feeling. This new found understanding provided clarity and helped me to know how I should be treated by a man. This altered my preferences.

Reading God’s word for myself brought comfort, peace, and understanding. He showed me that He only wants the best for me. The way I was living and going about it wasn’t the best. My way wasn’t getting me anywhere. It was only causing me more heartbreak and pulling me into darkness. I was so impatient and found myself always rushing into a relationship. It was like I was afraid to be alone with myself.

In my season of singleness, I’ve learned to grow healthy friendships with women by having lunch dates and relating to them. This also helped me to realize that I am not alone with the choices I’ve made in the past. Connecting and sharing stories creates a bond and helped me to become vulnerable with others, instead of hiding and acting as if I had it all together. This experience has helped me grow in my spiritual journey.

God turns our pain into purpose, while the enemy wants nothing more than for you to remain in isolation. If you find yourself currently in a situation where you are looking for satisfaction or acceptance in another person, I want to let you know that God loves you more than anyone on this earth ever will. He created you. He sees what you are going through and He cares. Make the decision to step into a relationship with Jesus first and He will provide all your needs. I’m living proof.

✝️“Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭23‬:‭4‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/116/psa.23.4.NLT